Okayy,, that's enough.
Sometimes I don't understand what does God want me to do.
It looks like.. that He wants like this.. He wants like that..
but why does He give the tasks not in the right time?
I'm busy.. and I'm sick of it!!
He has sent so many people who needs my help...
but I couldn't handle it by myself!
When I just solved a problem, He gave me another.
When I solved the other, He gave me the others.
I'm trying to be strong.. but the fact.. I'm just an ordinary girl.
I'm still studying at school, I haven't become an adult,
I'm still under my parents' guide, my money come from them,
and sometimes, I don't want to give more pressure to my parents,
especially about financial things.
It's just because, I've already given them a big pressure
when I entered the most
EXPENSIVE-USELESS school in the world. haha..
I love to do charity..
I love to help people..
but, of course the things are getting stressful,
when they don't come in the right time, right place, and right situation.
I don't know what kind of another surprises which will come to me on this month.
Christmas... and it's all about charity and worship in the church.
I think that I can FREE on this month. But I think, that's a wrong thought.
*sigh*
[nb : Today.. I just solved a 'thing'... but suddenly.. more 'things' just came up!
I don't know whether I can handle it all of the things or not.
I don't know whether I can
keep stronger, or just
give up.
I don't know.. what will happen next.]
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